I pray about it, attempt little things I can do with my hands full, and pray some more. The stress of nursing and homeschooling and housekeeping and activities and more is taking its toll on my body and my mind. There are good moments, but they are getting less and less. That's NOT how it should be, right? A family of 7 is more than a larger table or van.
We are so blessed AND so stressed!
The kids are trying to do school, but it is getting interrupted too often with gorgeous weather, antsy little ones, and being my helpers. It certainly has been stressful on them too. So we are in the process of applying for Charter Schools for Fall 2012. Public school is not an option and the nearest acceptable Catholic school is too expensive and too far away. Homeschooling seems to be a lost cause for our stressed out family life. It was good while it lasted, but it's not for everyone. We're leaving it in God's hands now, upon acceptance at the school. The weight is off my shoulders at last.
In the meantime, I'm working on cleaning up the messes around here. Such as, another can of food dumped in the fish tank, erasing artwork from furniture, and trying not to step on the toys that layer the floors.
So others in blog-land realize that staying at home doesn't mean your house is always sparkly clean. This is considered semi-clean for us and it does bother me for it to be this way. It's usually much worse. Too much visual clutter for my taste.
This time out turned into a much needed naptime. Praise God.
A good day…
That 80 degree day was a piece of heaven. Eddie got his first exposure to direct sunlight, and loved it! We just love that boost of serotonin the sun gives while we have lunch on the deck, go for a walk, play out back, or color chalk on the driveway.
And the kids and I drew up plans for a future garden. (ya right)
I didn't know you could grow steaks and eggs in a garden? Or pineapples and bananas in Minnesota? Below is my MN correct garden with foods I'd actually like to grow.
"We may not have it all together, but together we have it all!"
You are not alone in your struggles. Many of us (family's who have answered the call to HS) carry similar crosses.
ReplyDeleteHere is a meditation that I re-read often. It gives me a renewed spirit.
http://www.presentationministries.com/brochures/HomeSchooling.asp
I pray that you find "JOY in His grace."
Ad Jesum per Mariam,
Lena
You are an amazing mom! You're following the promptings of God and He will give you the strength and wisdom to persevere in these changes. Praying for you and your family as you make this transition to charter school~ God willing!
ReplyDeleteYour family room is like so many of us moms who actually have families who live and play in these rooms!
Thank you for sharing your struggles. I, too, have been struggling a great deal these past few months - and I don't even have a newborn as a good excuse!
ReplyDeleteYou are in my prayers -
blessings
Karen
Praying for you as you discern your choices!
ReplyDeleteBeing a mom of five is no easy task for those of us who want things done perfectly - yesterday. There are so many projects I have had put put on hold, certainly the first year after having a new baby and sometimes indefinitely.
Hope you got some needed relief Saturday night!